kimi knoxville

Do you know what I mean when I say today is the perfect day to watch Garden State?  It is so cold in my room so I’m bundled up in long sleeves, sweats, socks, & my comforter.  When I move to the other side of the bed, it’s cold and the only thing that could make it better would be if it was raining.  The mood that Garden State puts me in is a mix between sad-happy-hopeful- BUT I can’t watch Garden State right now.  I don’t have enough time to watch it so I’ll have to live with listening to the soundtrack. (I’ll try to watch it later tonight after class & my walk with Emmy… if I still feel like it.)  I’m a movie connoisseur & can watch the same movie over and over and over again.  It’s kind of sick if you think about how many movies I quote all the time.  In fact, half the shit I say comes straight from movies.

Things that are really bothering me right now:

• When people think that they are invincible
• People who keep apologizing
• People who do things that I can’t comprehend
• When someone tells me that if I say “I love you” loosely, it will lose it’s meaning
• Unnecessary traffic
• “Spend this much more $ & you’ll get free shipping” (it gets me every time)

Things that are making me happy right now:

• Radiohead
• New clothes
• Enjoying work
• Late night Skype talks
• People who understand me
• Emelia the Pup
• Finding my sleeping mask & using it

On the topic of using the word “love” loosely, what about using the word “death” loosely?  How many times do we say “You’re going to die when you hear this”, “I die”, “This is killing me”, “I’d rather die than…”, etc.?  It’s whatever- it’s our culture.  We use concepts of love and death loosely.  Deal with it.  Saying “I love you” for the first time to someone that you’re in love with is a big deal, I get that.  But we shouldn’t be afraid to love.  We shouldn’t be so cynical and skeptical about love.  I mean this is just my take on it… so you can think what you want, naturally.  Basically what I’m getting at is you never know when the last time you will see someone is so you SHOULD say I love you.  We joke about death but death isn’t really funny.  We can joke about love but without love we’re not really living.

Because I like my Sketchers, but I LOVE my Prada backpack.

Honestly I hope that made sense.  If it didn’t and you want to know more about what I meant to say you can talk to me about it.  I don’t think that if you say I love you that it will lose its meaning.  ”I love you” is not an apology.  Love does not conquer all.  Just if you mean it then you should say it.  My mom told me that when she was growing up my grandpa said that he doesn’t have to say it- she should just know.  And when I was growing up and of course even now- my mom makes sure that I know that she loves me.  (Love you mom!)

I swear I’m going to post that Halloween blog soon.  It’s half way done.  It’s not a huge thing by any means- I just wrote it all out, posted the pictures and then Tumblr was down for maintenance. And the WHOLE THING got deleted!  It’s just been a pain trying to re-upload the pictures in the order that I had them.  Whatever, it’ll get done.

On a happy-note: Michael (H) sent me a link on where I can buy that Hinge Owl necklace….. & I ordered it!!  I got 2 other things in order to get free shipping.  Hahaha.  Seriously it gets me every time!

Hilarity.

OBSESSED with Radiohead today.

Currently I am @ Starbucks on campus.  I’ve already shared how I feel about this particular location.  I just now realized that all I’ve ingested today was a McDonalds McCafe, a RedBull & now my Venti White Mocha…. so I bought some roasted almonds. Hmm… what to eat tonight for dinner.  I guess I could go hang out at Ralph’s for awhile & get something there.  I hope my stomach doesn’t growl loud during Gender Studies….

Going to the grocery store past 10 o’clock is always an interesting time.  I feel like all the weird-o’s go late… but then I go late too.  Am I a weird-o?  The acceptable answer here is of course, yes.

I’m kind of pissed off that I haven’t made a vlog in awhile.  For someone who does nothing, I do a lot.  I always think of “funny” things to do like while I’m in the shower or driving places.  Of course I don’t write it down… I could potentially be the funniest person on the entire Earth & no one would no because I never express my thoughts.  That kind of makes you want to hang out with me now huh?  I’m taking names, so grab a number.

(side note: roasted almonds suck without salt… I kind of feel like I’m gnawing on bones.)

I’m  attempting to listen to my music with earphones.  The problem is is that I have both of my tragus’s pierced and the buds aren’t staying in.  They keep falling out and I know people are judging me.  Judge away assholes.

The past couple of days my eyes have really been irritating me.  & believe me I have been complaining. Well it turns out that when you have monthly contacts, you actually have to switch them out.  I’ll be sure to do that when I get home….

A new commercial is out and it’s about this new phone that is for YOU.  Of course I can’t remember the brand right now but what I’m getting at is the song that is in the background.  Sinnerman- Nina Simone FEATURING Felix Da HouseCat. AHMAZING.  Years ago I was watching Cellular, if you haven’t seen it then try to follow along.  There is a scene in the movie where the guy with the phone is running down the bank thats being renovated or something because there is lots of that clear plastic and those huge stair structures… anyway THAT song was playing & it was a really intense scene.  I texted like EVERYONE I knew asking what that song was, I waited for the credits at the end of the movie and I don’t know if I’m just retarded but I couldn’t find them.  Everyone made fun of me for watching the movie and they didn’t help at all.  THEN out of the abyss came a cow- Elsie.  No just kidding, but really I was at my old job and all the sudden this magnificent song was uploaded to the playlist and it was MINE.  I put that shit on repeat like it was going out of style.  Everyone who worked there loved it, all the guests loved it, I LOVED IT.  I forgot about it when the restaurant closed but just fell back in love because of this dumb commercial.

Something that I’ve wanted for 3 solid years now and that I am not embarrassed to say that I want is: an OCC sweatshirt.

In 6th grade everyone has to take a D.A.R.E class.  You know that Donuts/Drugs Are Really Excellent class that cops teach?  My officer’s name was Officer Angel Harjela.  She shook everyones hand and that was the moment where I learned how to give an actual handshake.  I HATE flimsy hand shakes.  A hand shake is a great first impression.  If you have a weak handshake- you’re dead to me.  A good hand shake is an important thing to have.  If you don’t have one, I seriously SERIOUSLY suggest getting one stat.

Last night at work was actually great for a Monday!  Everything was really going smoothly and the people were actually civil.  I only had one weird-o.  This is what she ordered:

1/3 Veggie Bowl. Goat Cheese. On a bed of Mixed Baby Greens. Black Olives. Grilled Onions. Jalapenos. Hard Boiled Egg. Grilled Pineapple. Lettuce Blend. Black Bean & Corn Salsa. Green Chiles. Roasted Red Bell Peppers. Sprouts. Scallions. Spicy Peppercinis. Tomatoes. Sauteed Mushrooms. Avocado. & Honey Mustard ON THE SIDE.  This was the biggest bowl I’ve ever seen.  This young, fit, 25 year old girl.  She ate the entire thing.  After she ate it, she had a Carmel Chocolate Brownie A LA MODE.  People are so peculiar.  But everyone has a story.  Have you ever thought about how weird it is that there are millions and billions of people that we don’t know and every single one of them has a family and a story.  This girl walking past me has like relationships and a mother and a life. WEIRD.

That was a little too deep for me right now.

I just checked the weather & I am chillin’ in 63 degrees weather outside.  Good thing I’m wearing closed-toe-shoes.

I’m working on a Halloween blog but I’m going to put that on hold.  Actually it might be up tonight.  Or tomorrow.  Or the next day.  We shall see.

I’d like to take this time to say HI to all my new readers.

HAHAHAHAHA- I crack myself up.

I’m sitting directly in front of 2 NO SMOKING SIGNS and everyone here is smoking.  I don’t mind, I just think it’s funny.  A little rebellion never hurt anyone.  Except Bacon.   Anyone?  Anyone?

Update: I went to Ralph’s & got asparagus.  I went to grill the asparagus but because of my lack of sleep I forgot to put on the EVOO.  Without thinking I poured the EVOO on the grill and the oil spit everywhere & on me.  I attempted to clean it up…but caught the paper towel on fire.

I get why people do this… But at the same time I really just don’t understand… When people see highway patrol radaring cars on the side of the freeway they slam on their breaks. HELLO they already saw you speeding, now how about you get that foot back on the gas pedal before you cause a 6 car pile up. & Stop going 95 in the right line while people are trying to get off on their exit..

Hoes these days.